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Friday, April 20, 2012

Kerrigan's Pink Shoes

I know that it's been forever since I've updated Kerrigan's blog. I've been meaning to for a couple months now, but between my classes and Brandon's classes and Jasper and organizing Kerrigan's run, I've been swamped. So, I caught a few minutes before class today to post this video. I figured it was time for another one of Kerrigan's cute videos, so here she is, beating up Heidi before shoving him in a box, where she discovers her favorite pink shoes.



Monday, February 13, 2012

Save the Date!


Just a reminder to save the date for Kerrigan's Run for a Reason! Our first annual event will take place on July 14th at Homesteader Park on Powell. We hope to see lots of you there, whether running or just having a good time with friends!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Jingle Bells, continued

Fast forward another year, and Kerrigan has now figured out how to sing the actual lyrics to "Jingle Bells." An added bonus: a brand new piano...with a microphone! (Loved so much by little girls, not so much by Mommy). Thanks to her Grandma & Grandpa Foulger for allowing her to bring so much music into our home with her beloved piano!


Monday, January 2, 2012

Resolution for the New Year

I Resolve:

• That I will grieve as much and for as long as I feel like grieving,
and that I will not let others put a time table on my grief.

• That I will grieve in whatever way I feel like grieving, and I will
ignore those who try to tell me what I should or should not be feeling
and how I should or should not be behaving.

• That I will cry whenever and wherever I feel like crying, and that I
will not hold back my tears just because someone else feels I should
be "brave" or "getting better" or "healing by now."

• That I will talk about my child as often as I want to, and that I
will not let others turn me off just because they can't deal with
their own feelings.

• That I will not expect family and friends to know how I feel,
understanding that one who has not lost a child cannot possibly know
how I feel.

• That I will not blame myself for my child's death, and I will
constantly remind myself that I did the best job of parenting I could
possibly have done. But when feelings of guilt are overwhelming, I
will remind myself that this is a normal part of the grief process and
it will pass.

• That I will not be afraid or ashamed to seek professional help if I
feel it is necessary.

• That I will commune with my child at least once a day in whatever
way feels comfortable and natural to me, and that I won't feel
compelled to explain this communion to others or to justify or even
discuss it with them.

• I will keep the truth in my heart--the truth that my child is always
with me in spirit.

• That I will try to eat, sleep, and exercise every day in order to
give my body strength it will need to help me cope with my grief.

• To know that I am not losing my mind and I will remind myself that
loss of memory, feelings of disorientation, lack of energy, and a
sense of vulnerability are all a normal part of the grief process.

• To know that I will heal, even though it will take a long time.

• To let myself heal and not feel guilty about not feeling better
sooner.

• To remind myself that the grief process is circuitous--that is, I
will not make steady upward progress. And when I find myself slipping
back into the old moods of despair and depression, I will tell myself
that "slipping backward" is also a normal part of the mourning
process, and that these moods, too, will pass.

• To try to be happy about something for some part of every day,
knowing that at first, I may have to force myself to think cheerful
thoughts so eventually they can become a habit.

• That I will reach out at times and try to help someone else, knowing
that helping others will help me to get over my depression.

• That even though my child is gone, I will opt for life, knowing that
is what my child would want me to do.